Continuing the theme of lyrics as post titles…heh.
I don’t dance. And when I do, I shouldn’t. I’m a terrible dancer. I’m the epitome of a white girl when it comes to moving my body. It just doesn’t flow. It doesn’t matter if I’m drunk or sober.
I’ve always been accident-prone. When I was taking psychology classes in university, we took a test to score ourselves on the different types of intelligence (linguistic, logical-mathematical, musical, bodily-kinetic, interpersonal, spacial, intrapersonal ). I scored very low in bodily-kinetic intelligence. My professor theorized that I’m so clumsy because I don’t have a good ability to tell where I am in relation to other objects.
I scored highest on interpersonal and intrapersonal as I recall, which is counter-intuitive but hey; that’s me.
I’ve suspected for a long time that I have a mind-body disconnect. The things I like to do aren’t physical other than riding a motorcycle which is a mix of physical and mental. I know that I’ve always been clumsy; some of my earliest memories are of falling over or being hurt, but I wonder how much the pain I have in my body on a near-constant basis has to do with it? Did I separate myself from my body because of the pain, or am I painful because I’m separated?
Now that I’ve been having this work done on my body to alleviate the pain I wonder if I could have dealt with the issues before they got this bad if I had been paying better attention.
I don’t tend to pay attention to my body unless there’s something wrong with it. It gets me from point A to B, it doesn’t like the sun, I feed it when it’s hungry…but sometimes I have a hard time recognizing it as me. Now that I say it, if sounds really weird – but there you go.