I had a really vivid dream last night that I discovered what the afterlife is like. In my dream I somehow got to “follow” someone after she died, and when I came back I had absolute certainty about what will happen after death. The weird thing is there was no god or heaven per se, no answers; just a little wait up in the stars before a transition to another sort of life.
I wonder if this has anything to do with my decision to give in to what I’ve been feeling for a long time and embraced the fact that I am a Secular Humanist, and don’t believe there is life after death?
I have come to realize that there is enough wonder, mystery, and beauty in the world and the universe without having to invent stories to explain what we don’t currently know. I think that at some point, humanity evolved to know that there was “something bigger” than us out there, and in order to try to understand and control it we anthropomorphized it (“it” being forces of nature, the universe, the world, science…”) into human-like gods.
I have always felt a pull to religion, although always to panentheistic or henotheistic religions. I always felt that there had to be something more, something bigger. At the same time I had a lot of trouble reconciling myself with the idea of a personal god and the problem of evil.
Participating in religious or spiritual beliefs made me feel like there was something bigger that I was connected to. Knowing that a god or many gods are personally interested in you and see you as special can help you find a place in this world – you’ll know what you’re here for.
I think a lot of people want to know what they’re here for, and what their goal in life is. The truth is we’re here to reproduce and carry on our genes, just like any other animal on Earth. That may sound bleak, but I think it’s freeing. I get to decide what to do with my time and my life.
Whew. I really just meant to come here and post my strange dream. This is just a brief overview of my thoughts on religion and Secular Humanism. I’m too sleepy fo any more coherent thoughts.